stir crazy & lazy.

i'm going to blame this on my dogs. honestly all they want to do is lay around, sleep & watch tv all day.

obviously the crazy part is really starting to shine through.  i'm so thankful for all this spare time but i find myself wasting it day after day.  i do a lot of cleaning, which i enjoy, i paint sometimes & read on a weekly basis but really. i know i'm supposed to be doing more.

i've been reading this book "Chazown" by craig groeschel & it's about finding out what God wants us to do with our lives.  i've been reading it waaaay too slowly & let too much time pass between chapters which makes it really hard to tie it all together.  surprisingly, with all that said, i have learned a lot about myself.  God gives all of us core values, spiritual gifts & past experiences to build the person that He wants us to be.  it's pretty exciting to see all of those things come together & see some of the ways i can truly make a difference in this world.

God has given lyman & i so many opportunities to really use what He's given us - lyman uses his gifts everyday in a job that he loves & still looks ahead at what he can do to make even more of an impact in this life. really, love this guy more every single day.  but me- i'm not doing anything.  i don't doubt that i have a lot to offer because of where i've been & the resources i have but i need to do something about it!

lyman & i talk all the time about how early older people get up & really it just makes so much sense that they would because they realize they have less days than they did the day before. whether that's their last or not, they know they have to do SOMETHING worthwhile.  as much as i think about that, i really wish i'd change my way of thinking because as cliche as this may sound, this could be my very last day.  & i'd be wasting it on my couch.

honestly, i could be looking too far into this, but i have a yearning in my heart for more & it's about time that i get excited about it!